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Now, Let’s Get You Caught Up to Pre-Delivery! Sound Good?

April 18, 2022

This was written on March 5th. So the second trimester started with more energy but not so fun pelvic pain. It also meant I graduated from my IVF clinic and was officially an OB patient. It was bittersweet leaving my IVF doctor because she obviously made this whole thing happen. But obviously, I was excited to keep this babe growing, and get to see him a bit more.…

Probably a Good Time to Tell You… I’m Fucking Pregnant!

March 4, 2022

I cannot believe I didn’t post here. It’s not surprising; the podcast has gone quiet too. I had my transfer, and then BAM fell off the blog world. Well, it’s been a fucking whirlwind. It took about 12 tests to fully believe what I was seeing. There’s an actual line. Then I got the positive digital test, and I was shocked. It worked. It fucking worked! My first…

Surprise! I Finally Have an Update.

March 23, 2021

I swear I just posted but I realized it’s been a while. I keep Instagram the most up-to-date, for sure. But in case you missed those, here’s the latest update. From the PGS testing, I got results on 2 embryos! 1 of them didn’t get enough cells initially, so I had to wait another week while they thawed it, re-biopsied it, and retested it. Stressful! Then we finally…

My Egg Retrieval Surgery & the Embaby Updates!

February 25, 2021
IVF Egg retrieval results! Embryo count

Oh man, it was a whirlwind of a week. The meds, the prep, having mom fly in, and getting ready to go. Wednesday was a lot. 4 shots in one sitting. Gonal F + Menopur mixed together, Cetrotide, and 2 trigger shots of Luprolide and Novarel. One of them, the one that goes in your butt, has quite a large needle. So that was fun. Had to wake…

Shots Have Proven to be Drastically Different in Your 30s.

February 10, 2021

Really, though. No one warned me just how drastically different taking shots look when you’re in your 30s, especially when trying to have a baby alone. I swapped vodka shots for IVF shots. And I don’t regret it a second, even now. Last week I had to pay the $15,000 upfront. YIKES. If it weren’t for my amazing parents, this would have been a struggle. The past 12…

What in the Actual IVF is Going On?

February 5, 2021

Finding out that test was negative was like someone kicked me right in the gut, right where it hurt the most. Why the fuck isn’t this working? I’ve never had any issues, irregular periods, nothing. But this left me in a weird spot. A big decision to make. I have one, yes ONE vial left of my chosen donor. And let me tell you, I kick myself in…

The Result That No One Fucking Wanted.

February 2, 2021

Getting through this post is going to be tough and it’s probably going to be short. I’m sobbing as I’m typing this. A big fat fucking negative. I was so good. I didn’t test. I got super nauseous Saturday evening, ended up throwing up at dinner. Semi-nauseous the next day. I thought I had to be! No period yet; I have to be pregnant. I’m not. I cheated…

The Two-Week Wait, Is Not Fucking Fast Enough.

January 27, 2021

Alright, so we’re about a week through the two-week wait. Someone suggested I tested out my trigger shot. Which basically allows you to see how long it takes for the shot to leave your body. The line was barely visible by day 8 past trigger shot. I decided to stop testing because otherwise, I knew I’d get anxious about the result one way or another. Plus it takes…

I’m Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise.

January 18, 2021

Someone said that to me and it hit me hard, like I guess I am! So I’m rolling with it. So Friday night mom and I had dinner, did a little gambling, came home early to relax, watch some tv, and then head to bed. Well, I slept for shiiiiiiiit because I was so anxious. But before bed, I used it as a time to manifest the shit…

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