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Oh Hello, Follicles! So Fucking Happy To See You!

February 13, 2021

We’ve got an update, and yes I’m gonna fucking post them all! We’ve (I say we because we’re all in this together) got 10 FOLLICLES! I think they entered one of them wrong because on the video the biggest are 14 and 18, and I think someone typed 13 instead. Either way, 10 are growing and being monitored. So yesterday we switched up meds a bit. I stopped…

Shots Have Proven to be Drastically Different in Your 30s.

February 10, 2021

Really, though. No one warned me just how drastically different taking shots look when you’re in your 30s, especially when trying to have a baby alone. I swapped vodka shots for IVF shots. And I don’t regret it a second, even now. Last week I had to pay the $15,000 upfront. YIKES. If it weren’t for my amazing parents, this would have been a struggle. The past 12…

What in the Actual IVF is Going On?

February 5, 2021

Finding out that test was negative was like someone kicked me right in the gut, right where it hurt the most. Why the fuck isn’t this working? I’ve never had any issues, irregular periods, nothing. But this left me in a weird spot. A big decision to make. I have one, yes ONE vial left of my chosen donor. And let me tell you, I kick myself in…

The Result That No One Fucking Wanted.

February 2, 2021

Getting through this post is going to be tough and it’s probably going to be short. I’m sobbing as I’m typing this. A big fat fucking negative. I was so good. I didn’t test. I got super nauseous Saturday evening, ended up throwing up at dinner. Semi-nauseous the next day. I thought I had to be! No period yet; I have to be pregnant. I’m not. I cheated…

The Two-Week Wait, Is Not Fucking Fast Enough.

January 27, 2021

Alright, so we’re about a week through the two-week wait. Someone suggested I tested out my trigger shot. Which basically allows you to see how long it takes for the shot to leave your body. The line was barely visible by day 8 past trigger shot. I decided to stop testing because otherwise, I knew I’d get anxious about the result one way or another. Plus it takes…

I’m Pregnant Until Proven Otherwise.

January 18, 2021

Someone said that to me and it hit me hard, like I guess I am! So I’m rolling with it. So Friday night mom and I had dinner, did a little gambling, came home early to relax, watch some tv, and then head to bed. Well, I slept for shiiiiiiiit because I was so anxious. But before bed, I used it as a time to manifest the shit…

We Have a Big, Exciting Update, FINALLY!

January 15, 2021

Last week I took the Clomid all week, had headaches this time which was NOT fun. Saturday and Sunday I did 50 units of Follistim shots each day. Monday morning rolled around and it was time for another ultrasound. Monday (1/11/21) was said to be a really good day to manifest so the whole drive to the doctors office I kept saying this over and over while touching…

Let’s Try This Again, Are You Ready?

December 30, 2020

Listen, I am so damn ready. If you read my last post you know that I have been frustrated beyond belief with the way things have been going on the baby making front. First, only my left (and blocked) side was ready to go. Then, they found a cyst. It’s like my body was just not having it. I went in for an ultrasound this week and found…

I’m a Bit Frustrated, to Be Fucking Honest.

December 14, 2020

It seems crazy that my last update was a month ago. But I had to wait the 2 weeks for my period to show up before starting the process alllllll over again. So my cycle started the week of Thanksgiving, meaning I would have had to go in that Wednesday or on Thanksgiving. Which obviously wasn’t possible, so yet again I started the birth control to push my…

My Left (and blocked) Side is Throwing a Rager.

November 4, 2020

So here’s the latest. I went on Monday after taking the Clomid all last week. Followed by a shot each day of 50 units of Follistim. The ultrasound (sped up + showed below) looked good to my naked eye. I could tell by the measurements that my left side was definitely better than my right. They recommended we up the dosage of the Follistim Monday & Tuesday, and…

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